I am on a journey to finding joy and purpose through weight loss and green living. Although, a lot of progress has been made, my journey is just beginning. I do not think there will ever be a time where I can say I have “arrived”. However, over the last year there have been many lessons learned the hard way. My weight loss journey has not been easy, and I still struggle with it everyday. I want to share some of my experiences in the hopes I may help make someone else’s journey a little easier.
The Dark Days.
A few years ago I was miserable. I had a mega stressful job that I hated, I was morbidly obese, and my family life was a mess due to health issues and other really heavy things that no 20 something should ever have to deal with. Basically, I lived my life with a storm cloud hovering over my head. I wanted so desperately to be happy, but no matter what I did, I could not pull myself out of my own self-pity long enough to get my life together. I remember sitting at my computer googling ‘how to be happy’ in some desperate attempt to find the quick fix to happiness that you could order on Amazon. Spoiler Alert: That quick fix doesn’t exist.
Emerging from the darkness.
Then something happened, I just decided one day that I had enough. I was tired of being miserable and I decided to do something about it. I took control of my life. It took getting a new job, getting help for my anxiety/depression, and joining weight watchers. I started seeing the life I had always imagined somewhere at the end of that dark tunnel.
So far, through this journey I have been able to lose 110 lbs (and counting- halfway to goal!) and discover one of my passions – living a greener life. As an overweight, over stressed person diagnosed with anxiety and depression I had no energy to do anything. I would come home from work and lay down on the couch and watch TV, only getting up to eat. My weekends would consist of sleeping in until noon, eating and napping. As the stress began to disappear and the weight started coming off, I suddenly found myself with more energy.
My “old life” was all about convenience, fast food, prepackaged foods anything that would make me expend as little energy as possible. When I joined weight watchers, my family started making all of our meals and planning out all of our food. Fresh fruit and vegetables became a staple in my diet.
Finding my passion.
When spring came, I decided to try my hand at growing my own fresh produce. I fell in love with gardening! Growing my own food is so satisfying!
This re-ignited my passion for nature and all things eco-friendly. I have always been interested in environmental issues, but I never had the motivation to really follow through with living an eco-friendly life. I would recycle, when it was convenient, but I never really went out of my way to reduce my environmental impact. Watching the news and the current political climate, I realized that I could no longer ignore the problem. I was waiting for big changes to happen from up top, and after the election, I knew that was not going to happen. So I started with the only thing I could control: my own actions. The changes started small. Using reusable shopping bags, skipping Ziploc bags and ending my relationship with plastic straws (this was hard, I loved my straws!!).
I started thinking about what I consumed and once I realized how much waste (especially plastic) I produced, it was hard to go back. With my new found energy I started getting creative. I experimented with things I could make at home. I started sewing reusable sandwich bags, making my own bread and laundry detergent. Not only was it fun making things, I was saving money and the planet too! I still have a lot to learn about reducing my environmental impact, but I think just being aware of impact is the first step. I am by no means perfect but I am trying!
My weight loss goals and environmental goals may seem quite different, but I think that these are parallel journeys. I really think that losing weight has allowed me to focus on my passions rather than just surviving through the day. My hope is that we can learn from each other
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